Saturday, June 28, 2008
I had these delivered to Matt while he was working.
Posted by Katie @ 10:20 PM EST [Link]
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I am crazy!
Crazy!
Crazy!
Posted by Katie @ 08:20 PM EST [Link]
Today-
8 - 12:30 ; babysitting
1 - 7 ; work
Busy busy! :)
2 days!!!!!!!!!
Posted by Katie @ 07:22 AM EST [Link]
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Of course, OC NJ was amazing, as I knew it would be. I got up at 5:45 and started getting ready. Sam, Scott, and Matt got there an hour later, and we loaded up the cooler and our stuff in the trunk of my car. By the time we got to the beach on 34th Street, it was a little after 9. We stayed on the beach until 4:30!!!! I mostly tanned, went for walks with Sam, Scott, and Matt individually, and actually got wet wave jumping with Matt in the ocean! That was a lot of fun. =) We went to Randazzo's for lunch and I read a few chapters of my book. Sam and I made fun of my Seventeen magazine, since it is growing more and more trashy by the issue.
We did a lot of fun stuff. And the boardwalk was great too. We ate at a pizza place. I forget the name, but it was the one with the pizza eating contests, if anyone knows that place. We did a little window shopping; Sam wanted to buy seashells, as she collected them while we were on the beach. Then we split up and Matt and I went to ride the Ferris Wheel in Wonderland. He went in an arcade for a little bit, and we bought some fudge on the way back. I bought him some ice cream, and we met back up with Sam and Scott. By then it was eight o'clock. We got back in my car, exhausted, got gas at the Sunoco on 34th Street, and left. It was a long drive home for me too. =(
I took pics. They are on Facebook, and when I feel like it, I will upload them onto Myspace. I'm just going to go for a walk now. :) And btw, I did look awesome on the beach! Yay!
8 days till OC MD!!!!!!!!
Posted by Katie @ 10:07 AM EST [Link]
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Trip to OC NJ is today!!! I am going to start getting ready in about 25 minutes. Sam and Scott and Matt and I are going! I really can't wait. Because of money issues, this is one of only a few beach trips I'm going to be able to take this summer. The other being to OC MD with Matt on the 23rd. That's a 3 night trip though, so it's going to be awesome.
I'll be sure to take lots of photos and upload them to Facebook and Myspace. Never fear. Can't go to the beach without taking dozens of photos!
Posted by Katie @ 05:21 AM EST [Link]
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Last night was not so fun for me. It seems that even though I am taking my medicine religiously, I still go into my little "episodes." I've been really manic lately, planning a beach trip and being all excited because my bikini finally fits, and blah blah blah. Well, of course last night I crashed for the first time in a while. I could feel this sadness wash over me and I couldn't stop crying. Matt and I were lying in bed and I just started shaking all over and I was crying and he asked me what was wrong. I told him I felt really depressed and he asked what he could do to help me. I said nothing. We just had to wait.
So I rode out the storm, so to speak, and just waited for it to go away. When it was gone, it felt like an enormous burden had been lifted off of my shoulders. I sat up and started breathing again. I felt much better, had a small headache, but other than that, I was okay.
This made me think of all the times in my past, all those horrible times, when I let this disease take over me. Like the time four years ago when I had all these psychotic experiences. I thought my cat was the devil and that the walls of my room were closing in on me. Like the night I thought there was a ghost in my room. Turns out, the doctor said I was having a panic attack. With my cat, I was clearly delusional. To this day, I feel bad about it because I threw my shoe at my cat and could have hurt her had I not missed.
Yes, I know I am crazy. I go on shopping sprees, spending money that I don't have. Yet I can't seem to find a job. I want to plan all these shore trips that I also can't afford. Like going to Wildwood this weekend, which might not happen because of the weather, but even so, how am I going to afford that? I can't afford anything...
I know I need help. I have to go back to my doctor soon or I am never going to get better. I am sick, just as sick as someone who has cancer or something, because just as cancer gets progressively worse and kills, so does my disease. ='(
Posted by Katie @ 10:11 AM EST [Link]
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
http://www.squidoo.com/bpdisorder
Posted by Katie @ 09:04 AM EST [Link]
Monday, June 9, 2008
I tried on my two bikinis this morning. The eBay one and the pink one I wore three summers ago when I met Matthew. They both fit and I look amazing! I was twisting and turning in front of the mirror, almost crying from joy. Some of it is from all the weight I lost, 23 pounds in all since last summer, but mostly it is the surgery and what it has done for me. Aside from two small scars on my breasts that poke out on the sides, I look absolutely fantastic and I feel that way too!
I have the best doctor in the world! I have an appointment with him this morning at 11 and I have to remember to thank him! And I think I will send him a thank you card as well! In fact, I'm going to go buy him one on the way to the hospital but I'll mail it to him later. ^__^
Posted by Katie @ 10:06 AM EST [Link]
Friday, June 6, 2008
After working this morning from 10 to 3, I had my job interview. The interview was at 5, and I got lost on Ridge Pike trying to get to Collegeville during rush hour, so I didn't get there until 20 of 5. I parked down the street and ate my snack that was leftover from my lunch at work. Then I went in and met Karen. She brought me in and asked me some questions and I met her 11-year old daughter. Her 13-year old son was playing in the backyard with her 2-year old son. We went out back and watched the three of them run around and play on the swing set, then Dan, the father, came home. I talked to them for a while and we walked back inside to conduct more of the interview. I gave her my resume and we talked about school and past babysitting that I had done.
The little boy (I don't want to give their names online but we'll call him D) started getting into the cabinets in the kitchen so Karen gave him some crackers and milk. Then he and his sister played in the living room. They started running around and we went into the front room and I played peek-a-boo with D on the couch. He is too cute! They gave me a Coke to drink and we explored the basement. By the time I looked at the clock, it was after 7! I couldn't believe it! Karen and I went outside and she gave me directions. I came home, and it took me about 45 minutes. But it's not too bad because it would be Monday through Friday 8 - 5:30 and good money. If I do get this job, I definitely have to quit Hallmark and stop the one babysitting job that I have, but it will be worth it. After all, I do have to go where the money is, even if it does mean giving up some things I like. :(
So anyway, I think the interview went very well. Karen said she should know by Tuesday and will give me a call. I think she said there was one other candidate, which is a surprise because her job posting mentioned it being a good summer job for college kids so I thought there'd be more people. The good thing is that she said the other girl didn't have good availability. I think I might be able to get the job. The only time I'm not available this summer Monday through Friday is the week I go to OC MD, 23rd to the 26th, but they didn't seem bothered by it, and said that it's summer and it's fine to take vacations.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I remember what happened the last time I did that! Even so, I feel a lot more confident about this time as opposed to the last interview. We'll see. I'll keep you posted!
Posted by Katie @ 09:08 PM EST [Link]
I have a job interview today at 5 after work. I'm not going to get my hopes up. I won't! But I want to go there with a positive attitude and act like I know I'll get the job. Maybe that will help me get it?
Posted by Katie @ 08:49 AM EST [Link]
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Okay, since I can't seem to get a real summer job, here is what I'm thinking. Instead of freaking out more, I'm going to figure out a plan so I'm not screwed in the fall.
Matt has already agreed to pay for everything during our vacation in OC MD. I am going to fill his gas tank to get us there. He says he will pay for meals and ride tickets, within reason. He will not pay for souvenirs and gifts from boardwalk shops. I feel terrible about this, but even I will agree that I don't have the money and can't afford to pay for things during the trip. Instead, I need to save what little money I do have for the apartment.
I am going to get all the hours I can during the month of July and the first half of August, at Hallmark. I've already turned in my June availability, so I am going to just have to hope that she gives me most of the hours I requested. If not, there's nothing I can do about it. I'm already working tomorrow, Friday, and Saturday. It's a good start.
I am babysitting today, tomorrow, and Thursday for Heather. That money usually goes toward gas and the phone bill, but Matt agreed to pay the entire phone bill this month himself (actually, I think he already paid it) because he knows I was out of work on account of my surgery. So the babysitting I do this month I can keep. She pays me in cash so I can put it in the bank and pay for gas / save it. I need to open a savings account too.
That's pretty much the plan. There's not much else I can do. I didn't get the job I wanted and needed, so I'm going to have to do the best I can in my current situation. I'm not going to Matt's this week until Saturday so I'll save a little gas. For all the good it will do, considering gas is currently at $4.03 at Cumberland Farms and rising. -.-;; Anyway, before I get angry about that, I will move on.
I stepped on the scale this morning. I feel really great, I only have about seven or eight pounds till my goal. Yay! I've been drinking water, doing lots of walking, and not snacking late at night. We'll see how far I get by Friday. ;)
Posted by Katie @ 09:44 AM EST [Link]
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Of course I had to go and get all excited about this potential job. But she never ended up calling me. Nor did she call either of my references. I know because I called them both myself and asked them.
I think it is incredibly rude to keep someone waiting like this because you say you're going to call at this time and then you never do. I even left her a message on her answering machine asking to call me back with her decision because I was just wondering.
Too many of my babysitting jobs have fallen through before for me not to get angry at this situation. And I am SICK of job hunting!!! I spend more time looking for jobs than I actually do working!!!!!
Posted by Katie @ 08:34 PM EST [Link]
Waiting...
